Saturday, August 25, 2012

Woman's Pray

Semoga Tuhan menghadiahkan bagi wanita yang masih sendiri,
laki-laki yang menjadikannya pusat perhatian hidupnya,
yang bekerja keras bagi kesejahteraannya,
yang menanggalkan semua kesombongan
untuk meratap dan memohon maaf saat dia salah,
yang tak malu meminta untuk disayang-sayang dan dimanja,

tapi yang hebat dalam menghasilkan uang,

yang penyayang dan penderma yang anggun,
yang berwibawa

dan disegani karena kepemimpinannya,
yang berpengaruh luas,
dan yang kembali ke rumah sebagai kekasih
yang manja dan menggelakkan tawa.

Ooh Tuhan kami Yang Maha Cinta dan Maha Lembut,


kami mohon Engkau membimbing kami

untuk menjadi pantas bagi belahan jiwa yang indah.

Aamiin


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Adik-adik saya yang masih sendiri,


Yuk kita jamaahkan doa kita, sertakanlah ‘Aamiin’ dari Anda - agar lebih segera jawaban yang indah itu diturunkan dari Tuhan, bagi kelengkapan kehidupan Anda yang mendamaikan, yang menyejahterakan, dan yang membahagiakan.


Aamiin

Mario Teguh –
 
 
Bismillah, tiba-tiba ada suara di hati gw yang bilang, "Bismillah Ci, laki-laki yang baik adalah untuk wantita baik-baik pula". Hehehe, jarang-jarang si Ciah ngomongin beginian, apalagi ditulis di blog. Oalaah.
Yup betul sekali, saya sedang galau. Dan level galaunya sudah luamayan akut. Kok bisa? ya begitu deh.
I'll admit it, it's not so easy for me to tell anybody about this side of me, this vulnerable side i bet everybody has. You know, sometimes i think, will i become someone's wife someday? or am i even qualified to be married? like, i know everybody thinks i have reached the stage, the age, and every qualification one needs to get married. The fact is, no, i haven't. 
 
To be honest, i always have my eyes on somebody that i never even know. I mean, i know him, his name. I met him several times, he is a friend of my colleague. The other time, he even wanted to introduce me to him, but i refused, i was so red (read: my cheeks became so red like tomatoes, i swear) and told him that it wouldn't be necessary, i bet this friend of mine knew i was staring at "him" all the time, like all the time. It was so embarrassing. Well, actually, it is not the first time i am being "attracted" to someone, it is just every time it happens, those stupid things are just rotating back to the start line. Enough of this story.
 
The point is, he is known as one of the most "popular" guy in the faculty, like, every girls i know adores him. He is active in most prestigious organizations and events, he is smart (of course ᅲ_ᅲ), he is good looking (indeed), and the best thing is that he is a Moslem. How in the world wouldn't i be attracted to this creature called "boy"?? Gosh
 
But one thing, everytime i meet him at the faculty, it is like, there are these small pieces inside me that keep telling me that i will never ever have a chance to be his girl (oh gosh i'm actually writing down this silly things in here *panic), he will never ever "see" me, i am not good enough for him, and i will never be. When this happens, i was always like, ok fine i can just walk away and continue my life and i can just have fun with my friends without the needs to repair myself because i will never be as equal as him, and i just stay the same as always. That way i know i was wrong, it is not wrong in term of "being-confindent", it is about being a better person. You know, if someone wants to get a good husband, one should be a good person. And i know it is real, it is written in the Quran in fact. And i'm so ashamed of myself compare to him, i always want a good-smart-kind-funny-goodlooking husband, and how come i'm still stucked at this point? It's like, a beggar wanted to marry a prince, no compare. I look so miserable, i know.
 
Well, just to let you know, i'm now listening to Adele's song, Make You Feel My Love.
See you next time, hopefully i've changed to a better Ciah. hehehehe :P   
 
 
 
 
 
ps: i dont usually tell people (even my best friend) if i have a crush on someone, just you bloggy, just you :*