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2012-01-10T08:49:00.000-08:00

yeeessss!!! yes yes yes!!! today is the day of the final presentation for my architectural design 3!! and it's done pretty well. heheheee..

well, not that well but i'm proud of my work whatever the reviewer said it didn't really matter for me. because i did all i can do for these past 5 months.. yosh!!!

speaking about reviewer, well ya today we had an extraordinary outside reviewer, i think his name is Gofar or something started with "G", ya ya ok.. i know.. but it's not that "G". they're totally different.

well, this man is young, accomplished, married, cheerful, and of course rich. amazing, isn't he?

he studied architecture in my campus and guess what? he didn't become an architect! haha!! he actually is a businessman, a developer and an owner of this huge company that runs a real estate sector whatsoever.

i know what you guys think!

it doesn't mean i don't want to be an architect. I do, but i don't know if i have the ability to do all those complicated things.. yup yup yup. it's hard to explain this even if i write a book about that. ggrr..

The most valuable lesson i got from this acquaintance is that, I CAN BE ANYTHING I WANT. hehehee!!

haha... enough for this talk about architecture. enough! wekekekeekkk (i don't know i'm just so happy about the fact that this shitty-design-program-bla-bla-bla is ended! sorry for that :p)

oh yeah, i also did something else bad today. because we're asked to write a feedback to mr.G, and of course we can write anything we want. so i thought this is a great chance for me to take my revenge (to tell everything i thought about this man called "G" -____- )...

so i was being too honest then. mostly i wrote it like this:

you're always late even though you said it yourself that you're always punctual when you're in the US, and you told us to wait in the class at this particular time and you made us wait for hours.

you delayed things (presentations) to much, too often.

this class is actually fun but you sometimes put too much pressure on it (even when you didn't do it on purpose).

ps: sometimes we called you "gamses", and sorry for that.

oh yeah, you had this crunchy joke every time we had a class discussion. and it wasn't funny at all.

and i realized that you sometimes commented on our performance based on your mood,
so that we always had to check on your expression first whether you're in a good mood or a bad one.

thank you for your comments, advices, directions, guidance, and everything for this class.

i know i was being a bad girl to say such things. but i was in a hurry and i thought he will be okay with this, it is just a feedback. no hurt feelings. hahahaa

but i'm the one who feel more guilty right now. hahahaa...

really, i mean, really, guilty.

ok! fine i'll apologize someday. but i'm not making any promises. just saying.

so.. done for now. see you in the next semester. hope everything will turn out nice and great! yup yup thank you Allah for such an amazing semester! be it be better next time. aamiin..

ps: what the hell am i thinking?! i still have one more exam tomorrow at 1 pm and i'm already in the mood of holiday!! wahahahahaaha...

Blessed

2011-12-14T09:33:00.000-08:00

Have you ever felt like you are tremendously blessed?? Or like, happy but with more gratitude feelings?

Ok.. just for your information. Today is my birthday!! Dec 14th yay!! I'm 21 years old! wait.. it automatically means I'm old already.. but it's fine :)

Ok, so let's just start the with the story that today brought me.

So.. ok i'm on a strict diet this week, but since today is my birthday, i'm having a "dirty" plan in my mind to be free only for 1 day to have a meal time together with my friends. heheheee

Ok.. so the plan has been approved by my mom. and so here we go to our favorite sushi restaurant.

But these two friends of mine (Lyn and Icha) were telling me that they will be late so my friend (Ranti) and I should go first. Ok so then we went there.

Yup we were waiting there for like half an hour when Lyn and Icha came with a cake and candles in shape of 21, singing a happy birthday song for me. yayayayayayayayaaaa!!!!! hahahaha....

I'm not lying I was so surprised. I thought they were late for real, like may be trapped in traffic jam or fallen asleep in a car. hahahhaaa...

Oh yeah there's nothing better to have friends in life, I mean, they dont buy you and you dont buy them, right. It comes naturally and you are growing together and it means you have some parts in them and they have some parts of themselves in you..

And then, I had one more birthday present to tell you. Even though it's not planned, my friends who study in Australia went to visit the campus which they haven't seen in like almost one semester.. And we finally met and had chit chats like old friends catching all the stories up for deadline. Thanks Rizki, Ken, Alv, Andre :)

So we ate the cake, again. They absolutely ruined my diet program, for sure -____-" , but I'm so happy happy to see them again. Unfortunately not all of them can make it to come to Indonesia this holiday.. :(

Yeah, I feel like I need my old studio classmates already.. There were too many memories back then. The silly stupid crazy things back there were never ever be forgotten.

The other thing that I'm currently and intensely thinking about is that, how wonderful my life is.

I mean, I will be a moron if I'm not grateful for everything Allah has given to me.

I have wonderful parents, amazingly crazy sisters and brothers, cool family, fantastic friends, and a study major which most of people will think they will be happy to be doing it if they were in my shoes. Even people who congratulate me in facebook who i don't really know or even meet. It's just nice to know they care to write in my wall even for 10 seconds.

Anyways, it's like huge things that Allah has entrusted me. And I have to do something good about them, make use of them, care about them, be grateful with them, or share my love with them.

And it took me to my deepest realization that I should be much more more more and more grateful with my life. And I should not be the spoiled brat I used to be. Not anymore.

Hopefully it's not only my age that's getting bigger in number, but also my heart mind and soul that become wiser and fit what it takes to be a better human being.

haha.. kidding :p

Jakarta, December 14th 2011.

One of those days when you swear a lot

2011-12-12T09:32:00.000-08:00

Orang muda harus jatuh cinta sejatuh-jatuhnya,
patah hati sepatah-patahnya,
tertawa, marah, sedih, rajin,
dan malas se-crazy-crazy-nya,

tetapi,

engkau harus segera bangkit,
mendewasa, berdiri gagah,
dengan bekas-bekas luka yang indah
di wajah dan dadamu,
dan dengan anggun dan berwibawa,
katakanlah ..

Dengan kewenangan
yang diberikan oleh Tuhan kepadaku,
dengarlah ini ...

AKULAH PENENTU KEBESARAN HIDUPKU SENDIRI.

-Mario Teguh-

Yup, hari ini presentasi, bukan final, tapi mendekati.

Apa yang terjadi? I screwed it up.

Can you believe me if i tell you this??!

I mean, i'm not the best student in my class. I'm not the most diligent one. I'm not the genius one. But i tried my hardest.

I always tried to attend the class everyday -emphasize that, EVERYDAY-. When only 4 or 5 people out of 15 students attend the class, mostly for the whole studio class. yup 5 out of 15. It's really really a great class for you to take every semester, because you can literally do everything in the studio hours, nobody would care, even your lecturer -as you may call it that way-, well yeah i hate him. Sorry.

Ok, so the story began with the delay of the presentation which should be held on Dec 5th, just for your information I've done it at 1 o'clock the night before, and to be postponed until next week, which is today Dec 12th.

First, it sucks because I've already done it (even though it lacks 2% touch).

Second, the lecturer was never present at the studio, which is his obligation. -again, OBLIGATION-. So, how am i supposed to do with my project if someone who call himself "the expert" was never there when i need him?? (hosh hooosshh)

Third, Ok... let's say I would have more time to improve my presentation, which is a rare opportunity. So i fixed things here and there. Wallaah! I think it looks pretty good to me. I even had a little private consultation with the other lecturer (thanks a lot ka Dyah! :*). So, i finished everything early, have more time to do something else, even though i didn't have my weekend as much as i wanted, but it's good.

Fourth, So let's begin the freaking freaky presentation. I had never been so nervous about having a presentation. I never even cared if it'd turn out to be great or damned. But I believed in this one. I had my expectation high because I believed I have done everything I could, well ya not everything. Like, I didn't do models and stuff. But mostly everything. And well you know, it turned out to be me as the one who seems so LAZY and STUPID and IDIOT and LACKING and CAN NEVER BE AN ARCHITECT EVEN IF I TRY LIKE CRAZY.. hhhhhhh..

Fifth, I think I'm done with the architectural stuff here. I can't take it anymore. I mean, some of my friend who -mostly- never come to class got really nice comments and good bla bla bla from -ok i'm gonna have to say it anyway- Mr. G (even though i didn't really get it because it's not interesting for me), and me??

Fortunately, I followed Mr. Mario Teguh's facebook account. -___-"

Yup. Things will still be like hell for few days to come. But I will have my "revenge" to you Mr. G... hihihihi (evil laugh)

Miss You

2011-12-02T07:25:00.000-08:00

You know what?.. This is the time when I miss you the most.

When everything is at the finishing line.

When everybody starts disappearing.

When you showed up, but your shadow remains behind.

When I know that we'll meet again soon, but it feels like years.

When I talked bad about you, but I adore you in my mind.

When I stalked you before I left.

When I know you will see me again and expect me to be different.

Yes, I miss you the most, now.

Super g a l a u

2011-11-23T07:28:00.000-08:00

Oh yeah, it's normal. Totally.

Being so anxious, worried, and insecure at this age, is perfectly normal. Am I? Why is that?

Oh yeah, I remember. Because I've been single and alone my whole life.

Haha. You can laugh at me all you want. Is thinking too much about it going to help?

Oh God, I know everybody in the world has to go through this stage to learn what life is all about.

Really, I'm not sure I can go through it alone.

Just help me fix my self, please.

You know, sometimes life doesn't go along with your plan. Now I feel the most of it.

I thought that I could be anything I want, or do anything, go anywhere, or be with someone I want to be with.

I feel so alone I could almost cry.

I'm not asking to be a princess, I just want to be normal. Like everybody else.

It's so much much easier to be "galau" to a faraway celebrity than to a close real person.

You just can't control your mind, your heart, even your face.

Basically, you're being taken over by someone who doesn't think about you even for 1 second.

Yeah, definitely look pathetic. I mean, who wants to be in my shoes right now?

You can't focus, you're distracted all the time, you can't finish your work.

Well yeah, it's not anybody's fault, it's me. Totally me.

Ok, let's forget this. lalalalala... i love nuttela.

I wanna be like her. Hmmmmmm.....

Pride & Prejudice

2011-10-21T10:22:00.000-07:00

Mr. Darcy: "Miss Elizabeth. I have struggled in vain and I can bear it no longer. These past months have been a torment. I came to Rosings with the single object of seeing you… I had to see you. I have fought against my better judgment, my family’s expectations, the inferiority of your birth by rank and circumstance. All these things I am willing to put aside and ask you to end my agony."

Elizabeth: "I don’t understand."

Mr. Darcy: "I love you. Most ardently. Please do me the honor of accepting my hand."

I found myself in my most speechless state, ever. It was the most beautiful, impressive, dazzling, spectacular, and extraordinary love confession I've ever seen in my entire life.

Ok, you can judge me by saying i'm being exaggerating. Believe me i'm not. And I am almost convinced that this movie has become my favorite movie ever. It is so ROMANTIC without being so vulgar whatsoever.

Here comes the second one, one "heartattack" after another >.<

Mr. Darcy: "If your feelings are still what they were last April, tell me so at once. My affections and wishes have not changed, but one word from you will silence me forever. If, however your feelings have changed, I will have to tell you: You have bewitched me, body and soul, and I love, I love, I love you. I never wish to be parted from you from this day on.

Let me do some processing first, because I can't help it to go to another land called imagination when it comes to this. Really, Mr. Darcy has melted my inner core. And he is totally responsible for that. But where can I find him???

Cheers, me!

Dream

2011-08-26T11:19:00.000-07:00

Many people tend to dream big, me too. Why are the dreams coming to our lives? how are we able to dream? how do i dream? how big is your dream? how is mine? how to achieve it? what exactly is a dream??

Tonight's theme is quite sensitive for me. This abstract thing is always sticking there in my entire life.

Dream, i've been dreaming everyday, about everything, about everyone. my dream is always big enough for me. it is not something to be ashamed of, at all.

Yet, i have come to the point where i feel a little bit burdened about my 'big' dreams. "Is it possible to achive those??", that's why i thought.

Well, no one will ever dream small actually, everyone wants the best for their lives.

After my bull-shits, i will finally say, my nowadays-dreams are...

1. Get my assignments totally DONE with good grades

2. Be able to go to QUT no matter what

3. Get a fantastic and enjoyable job with excellent salary

4. Give all the money to my beloved parents

5. Be a sucsessful architect

You know what?? ini sebenernya tulisan tanggal 21 mei 2010!! hahaha! dan ga tau kenapa gue ga sengaja nemu tulisan ini dan ternyata juga gue baru sadar kalau ini belum di-post. Haha penting ga penting sih.. Oke lah, kita bahas aja.

Hmm.. Sepertinya kalau gue inget-inget lagi, pas lagi nulis ini gue lagi agak galau karena saat itu nasib gue ga jelas antara bisa lanjut kuliah di ausy atau ga. Waktu itu kalau ga salah masih ada beberapa syarat yang belum sama sekali gue urus buat lanjut kuliah kesana. Ada tes IELTS lah which yang ini gue belum tes karena one nonsense reason, MAGER -___-". Belum lagi nentuin univ yang tepat buat gue, antara QUT dan CURTIN, omg bahkan sekarang pun gue ga jadi kesana, bingung gue komeninnya, gahahaha... ternyata sekarang pilihan gue jatuh pada si SNU dan YONSEI which i didn't expect them to be my choices and even now i'm still not sure about that -__- . Oke. Intinya banyak lah hal yang harus gue urus saat itu.

And now, back to main topic. What are those dreams mean to me now? Am i still dreaming? Or will i be able to catch them? Or am i still dreaming the same dreams? (mulai gelo deh).

Sepertinya liat-liat dari daftar mimpi saya waktu itu, kurang lebih ga jauh beda lah sekarang. Cuma ketara banget dulu gue kurang lebih cuma ngeliat dunia doang (astagfirullah...). boleh dong ya sekarang nambahin.. hehehe

6. Become a better person

7. Get closer to Allah SWT.

8. Find a right person for me (as a husband) and my family

9. Be grateful for everything and for everyone around me

10. Live my life to the fullest and make the most of it

Yaaahh... Segini dulu lah ya. Mudah-mudahan yang segini dulu bisa tercapai, malah ini nih yang paling susah, haha. Tapi insya Allah asal niat bisa kok. Kayaknya gara-gara bulan puasa nih makanya saya jadi positif begini. Hahaha jadi malu. Yah pokoknya intinya semoga saya bisa terus mendekatkan diri pada Allah SWT lah, biar ga menyesal di akhirat (waduh omongannya udah kejauhan ci!! :p)

Hmm.... Oke sampai sini dulu. Udah malem bukannya tidur, mending kalo sambil ngaji! Dasar.. ckckck Padahal mbak udah pada mudik, mesti nyiapin sahur -_____-

Oke lah, Annyeooong!! Assalamualaikum :)

Proves, part1

2011-08-12T00:25:00.000-07:00

Annyeong.. Hello, blog.

Siang bolong lagi bulan puasa (walaupun lagi ga puasa), enak banget ngadem di kamar, nyalain AC, ditemenin sama laptop, hard disc, dan koneksi internet super cepat. What a life.

Gue ga yakin juga sih mau nulis apa, tapi berhubung udah buka blog, ya udah sekalian update aja :)

Hmmm... Kalo dipikir2, sekarang gue lagi ga galau sih. Cuma pas buka notes di hape, ternyata banyak bukti kalo gue pernah dan SERING galau. Walaupun isinya cuma notes orang galau dan sangat ga penting, tapi gue tetap nganggep itu sesuatu yang harus di-record. Siapa tau nanti kapan2 bisa dibaca lagi dan bikin ketawa. Huahahaa (sekarang aja bacanya bikin ketawa). Hosshh!!

Ok. Bukti kalau saya SERING galau.

1. "Kim Hyun Joong's kiss was a real one". Ini sepertinya kejadian waktu jaman2nya drama Playful Kiss baru nongol deh. Kalo ga salah, waktu itu gue mimpi dicium Hyun Joong. Dan efeknya sampe berhari-hari. Hahahahaha.. DODOL abis!

2. "Nae yeongwonhan saram, CJM". Waduh! ini lagi. Lagi2 galau gara2 drama. Yang ini gara2 Jeong Myeong oppa, drama Cinderella Sister. Hadeeeeh.. Yang ini gawat! Gawat banget! Hahaha.. sampe gue bikin daftar apa aja yang diperluin dan yang mau gue lakuin kalo gue nikah sama dia. :)) Gawat! :p

3. "How can a man makes such smile that touches people's heart into a shaking boat". And it's definitely because of him too, CJM. -____-" abis senyumnya ga nahan banget sih. Seriusan ini mah, baru pertama kali liat senyum orang, gue langsung berasa kayak di-freeze gimana gitu. Langsung ga bisa nafas gue saat itu! Hahaha!! Lebaaayy! Eh beneran deh :p

4. "Everytime i got a crush on a person, the world seems to be so much more beautiful. Even sometimes i feel i'm beautiful, everything tastes so sweet. Every sad songs, romantic quotes, pretty pictures, seem so fit in me. It's very embarrassing though, but it's fine. Because i have someone who can force me to do all those things and stays in my heart". Buakakakak!!! Yang ini JUGA gara2 sih killer smile-oppa. Hadeeeeh.... No comment deh. Udah terlalu malu gue.

5. "Have you ever feel like wanting someone so bad? Someone who will always be there for you, who will hold you tight and protect you, who will call your name out in a decent way, who will give you anything he has so that you wont ever feel empty, who will be someone you can rely on, who will tell you that you are the only one for him, the one who will tell you that HE LOVES YOU. Yes, I have. I've always felt that way every single night, to wish that someone who will be my man someday has the same feeling as i do to him. Dreaming that he come to me, whisper some sweet words, take me to another world, beautiful". SUMPAH! kalo yang ini gue nyerah dah. Ini sih bener2 effect dari si CJM oppa. Tapi yang ini lagi ngebayang doang, ga mikirin si CJM oppa lagi. Hhhhh.... -_-

Sodara2, segini dulu yaa.. sebenernya masih banyaaak lagi kegalauan yang saya tulis di notes hape. Tapi karena satu dan dua hal, saya sudahi sampai sini dulu. Abis ini kita lanjut lagi main galau2annya, Ok? Ckckckck, sebenernya sih, saya mau nonton Protect the Boss dulu. Hahahahaa... ada JJ nya!!! Horrrraaaaayyyyy!!! :p

Saya Malu

2011-04-17T10:44:00.000-07:00

Saya Malu, banyak sekali hal yang kebanyakan orang di umur saya ini harusnya sudah saya lakukan, paling ga sudah direncanakan. Saya? Mikirin juga belum.

Belum lama ini, gue lagi sering-seringnya jalan-jalan ke blog teman-teman gue, beberapa di antara mereka bener-bener nuangin secara jujur apa yang mereka pikirin, dan menurut gue itu satu hal yang bagus untuk introspeksi diri. Bisa dibilang, dimulai dari jujur kita bisa ngeliat apa yang salah di diri kita. Sedangkan gue, nulis blog kebanyakan yang ga penting. Yah walaupun kadang-kadang pengen banget nulis yang serius, tapi susah banget dan hasilnya malah nulis ga jauh-jauh dari korea lah, atau ga komik lah.

Ngeliat kehidupan mereka, walaupun sama aja kayak mahasiswa lain yang punya saat-saat stress berat gara-gara kuliah ataupun kehidupan sehari-hari, tapi kok bisa ya mereka introspeksi diri (walaupun di blog) dan nemuin solusi? bahkan ada juga yang dengan ikhlasnya nerima keadaan dan ter-inspirasi dari hal-hal kecil di sekeliling mereka dan ngerubah itu semua jadi penyemangat mereka. salut buat temen-temen gue!!

Kalo boleh jujur, sebenernya masalah mereka dan gue kurang lebih sama kok. Masalah kuliah, nilai yang naik turun, merasa salah jurusan, rasa malas selama ngerjain tugas, takut sama masa depan yang belum jelas, tanggung jawab sebagai anak, bahkan sampe masalah hubungan (^///^") aduh kok banyak banget ya.. tapi emang iya kan ya, umur segini lagi galau-galaunya. Atau gue aja yang emang cari-cari alasan? hueeee...
Tapi gue ngeliat mereka ini sebagai orang-orang yang tough karena, ga tau ya kenapa kok mereka bisa jujur, bisa ngelepasin ketegangan mereka dengan cerita di blog dan dengan santainya nemuin jalan keluar nya (walaupun ga selalu sih). Gue? tentu aja "jealous" sih, biasa deh orang ga bisa liat halaman tetangga yang lebih ijo (lho??)

Intinya, gue belum introspeksi diri, masih banyak hal yang harus gue planning dengan sebaik-baiknya. Ok, at least untuk sekarang, gue lagi ngejalanin les 3D untuk ngebantu kuliah arsitektur gue, Alhamdulillah tes ielts gue udah lulus, dan Alhamdulillah yang sangat-sangat kepada Allah SWT yang udah ngasih gue orang tua yang super melebihi superman dan wonder woman, udah bisa ngerawat gue dan adik-adik gue yang super juga.. hahaha..
Untuk sekarang, yang bisa gue lakuin yang pertaman, harus bersyukur dulu kali ya, karena kita ga bakal pernah puas kalo kita ga bersyukur, apalagi kalo lirik sana sini. Abis itu, bikin plan apa aja yang harus dicapai, biar ga ngalor-ngidul ga jelas juntrungannya. karena gue udah ngerasain banget, kurang lebih hampir setahun ini gue nganggur dan hidup gue jadi ga jelas. Semoga waktu setahun ini bisa jadi full battery gue ya.
Setelah udah fully charged, pastinja gue harus WORK HARDER THAN EVER! nah ini dia nih, yang bikin gue mules. ok, don't worry be happy!! haha!! yang penting harus HAPPY!! intinya jangan bikin apa-apa jadi sesuau yang bisa bikin lo stress, sebenernya kan yang bikin lo down ya diri lo sendiri. ya ga? kalo lo ga mikir itu sebagai sesuatu yang berat, ya gampang aja nyelesainnya. hahahaa.. amiin semoga pas gue mulai kuliah lagi, semuanya bisa dimudahkan oleh Allah, amiin ya robbal'alamiiin.

Terakhir, yang paling penting dan ga boleh ketinggalan, DOA yang sungguh-sungguh. Kata bundo sih, kalo doa harus spesifik. Ok deh kalo gitu. hari ini sekian dulu ya curcolnya. makasih blog-ku sayang. cuih! :p

FIGHTING!! YOU CAN DO IT!! ^^

Find Me Someone

2011-04-14T10:24:00.000-07:00

Have you ever felt like this? when you really need someone as your partner, not only the one whose the body is beside you, but who will care about you, always. Well, i'm indeed feel like that recently. Just because I haven't had a real relationship before, doesn't mean i don't understand this kinda thing, right? Holy shit, i actually hate this stuff. The thing that makes you think, even consume your energy for nothing. Arrgghhh...

To be honest, these days I've been re-reading my favorite comic book of all time, "Throbbing Tonight". Well, this is absolutely obvious, it makes me JEALOUS. The way the characters think, act, and express their love for each other. The way they protect each other. Sometime I wish I was the main character in it, Ranze Etoh. She could give her all for the man she loves, Shun Makabe. And it was not fake at all, her sacrifice for him was real, even non-sense. And finally she made it, HE LOVES HER BACK. Uuuuuuuhhhhhhh.......... the way he tries to hide his feeling for her, trying not to show his love in the cool way, but still protect her, gently. Oww shit, I really really was BLUSHING reading this book.

When it's time to reflect it back to myself, aaahhh... i'm kinda disappointed. Where the hell am i standing?? where should i be going?? Pleeaaasseeee.... Find me somebody to love T___T

Why I adore SHOES?

2011-02-26T08:19:00.000-08:00

Dahulu kala, anak ini sempat bingung, kesel, bete, bahkan ngambek gara2 nyokapnya selalu ngabisin waktu berjam-jam bahkan seharian di department store. Entah itu di toko baju, tas, maupun SEPATU. Ya, sepatu. Dulu, anak ini bingung kenapa ibu2 atau sebagian besar wanita dewasa suka 'buang-buang' uang buat beli barang yang dimata anak ini kelihatan biasa aja, kalau butuh baru beli ga juga gapapa, bahkan keliatan sama semua. Dia pikir, "emangnya bakal ada yang sadar kalo gonta-ganti sepatu? tas? aksesoris? capek deeeehh. ganjen". Apalagi semakin lama sang mami yang mulai kenal barang ber-merk, jadi ada deh tuh tumpukan tas dan sepatu yang beragam warna, model, harga, bahkan sang mami kadang-kadang nyetok alias nyimpen beberapa yang belum dipake buat kado lah apalah.. -______-''

Suatu hari, ga tau kapan, si anak ini sadar, ternyata dia cocok juga pakai sepatu pink rotelli mami-nya (eih jadi malu). Jadilah si anak mulai tertarik melihat-lihat model-model terbaru apa aja yang ada di centro dekat rumahnya. Yah walaupun ga beli, cuma iseng aja. Tapi pernah juga lho si anak beli sepatu yang kalau dipikir-pikir harganya lumayan mahal buat anak SMA pada waktu itu. Yang dia pikirin waktu itu cuma, barangnya oke, mami nya yang bayarin. That's it.

Seiring berjalannya waktu, umur si anak bertambah, pengetahuan akan gaya yang trend bertambah. Walaupun untuk beberapa hal si anak ga akan pernah ngikutin trend, contohnya skinny jeans yang makin hari makin skinny dan kerudung yang makin hari makin naik ke leher. Yang pasti, si anak ini udah mulai paham kayak apa sih style yang cocok untuk setiap occation yang akan dia datangin. Si anak bahkan jadi penata gaya mami-nya untuk urusan padu-padan baju pesta. Yang paling si anak doyan kalo lagi shopping, si mami selalu minta pendapatg si anak buat milih ini dan itu. Alasannya udah sering terbukti, si anak emang punya mata jeli kalo udah urusan sepatu, pilihannya oke oke, selalu nemu barang yang langka dan emang keren. Bahkan ga jarang toko yang sepi jadi rame pas si anak dan si mami dateng buat lihat-lihat (harusnya mereka dapet komisi ya dari tokonya :p). Jadilah si anak dan si mami SHOES LOVERS yang walaupun budget-nya terbatas, tapi taste mereka oke punya.

Untuk sepatu pesta, pastinya si anak (dan si mami) punya banyak sepatu hak alias heels. Penulis setuju banget kalo heels emang tempat penyiksaan buat siapapun, bahkan tumit si anak sering lecet sana sini, jari kaki merah2, tapi si anak doesn't even care about it (at first). Jadilah mereka menambah jumlah heels mereka. Jujur sih, sepatu-sepatu ber-hak tinggi mereka jarang dipake, kalo jalan yang dipake itu lagi itu lagi. Ga ngerti juga deh tuh tumpukan sepatu mau diapain, mau dipake ga ada acara yang pas, mau disimpen aja jadinya berdebu dan jadi rusak dengan sendirinya. Kadang-kadang si anak merasa bersalah juga sih. Tapi yang namanya SHOES itu emang GUILTY PLEASURE, she feels that every single time she buys a new one. YET SHE KEEPS BUYING THEM -_________-''

OK, alasan lain si anak jadi sahabat sepatu-sepatu itu adalah, SHE THINKS THAT SHOES CAN MAKE A WOMAN WOMAN, MORE THAN A BAG DOES. Ga ngerti juga sih apa maksudnya, tapi si anak udah terlanjur mikir begitu. Bukan berarti si anak ga suka tas. Well... belum lama ini si anak mendapatkan her first comfortable heels ever!!! congrats! Ya, si anak yang lagi nemenin mami dan adek nya beli sepatu di tempat biasa mereka mangkal, nemu si heels ini dan coba pake. Dan ternyata nyaman banget, baru pertama kali si anak nemu heels yang ga bikin tumit dan jari kakinya sakit. And guess what? it was KICKERS! can you believe this??!. At the end of the day, she was the one get new shoes while her sister got nothing :p
Oiya, just for your information, belom lama juga nih, si anak nemu tempat sepatu-sepatu keren dengan harga yang terjangkau. Jarang lho ada tempat kayak gini.. Penulis ga tau deh, kayaknya untuk ke depannya, si anak dan si mami bakal sering nongkrong disini. Soalnya si anak nemu satu lagi a pair of comfy shoes there, and it was stunning!, of course if you ask me whether she bought it or not, the answer is definitely YES.

Mungkin kalau dilihat dari sisi ekonomi, sosial, atau apalah itu, kelakuan si anak ini agak kurang bermanfaat. Bagaimanapun yang nikmatin efek dari kelakuan dia ini kan cuma si anak. Tapi Penulis juga bingung nasehatinnya, karena si penulis ini adalah si anak yang dari tadi kita omongin. AAAARRRGGGHHHH!!!! WHY DO I HAVE TO FALL IN LOVE WITH SHOES????!!!

*may be next time i will post some picture of the shoes. GBU

IT'S U-KNOW TIME, CASSIES...

2011-02-05T10:30:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUNHO OPPA!!!! SAENGILCHUKHAEYO!!! >.< Happy 25th oppa..

Well, It’s already been more or less 7 YEARS since i first saw you, and ever since then, I’VE BEEN IN LOVE WITH YOU <3 <3 <3

Hmmm... Since I can't give you my present personally, so i think i will talk about you for this whole night instead.

Honestly, you are my first crush ever as someone who i adore as a celebrity. Well, i can find all the personality from you, all the good things. People may think bad about you, about you being a bad leader or whatsoever, but WE (CASSIOPEIA) will never do that. Never.

I even dreamed about you as my future husband, it seems so disgusting for others to see but yeah, who cares. I can find all the precious from you. When you smile, somehow it seems like you're crying at the same time, I know it's been so hard for you to stand "alone" on the "stage", however it gives us (cassies) hopes and fact that you're trying your best and makes us do our best too. It's MAGICAL to see you two blow all the things and keep your head up while you're literally losing your best friends. I'm not saying this as if i don't care of the other three. I do care so much. However, it doesn't seem like i can say anything about them. I 'm neutral. Really.

Anyway....

Wish you all the best and i HOPE THAT YOU ALL CAN GET BACK TOGETHER AS 5, JUST LIKE THE OLD DAYS.. ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH!!!~

I BELIEVE IN YOU OPPA~ :)

AAAAAAAAHHHHH!!! I WANT YOU, YUNHO OPPA!!! >.<

melting as always -___-"

YOU HAVE TO WAKE UP!

2011-01-24T08:38:00.000-08:00

AAAAAHHHHHHH!!!! believe me this is so UNCOMFORTABLE!
these days i went to bed so late, always around 3-4 am -___- just to do something that's not even worth anything. watching drama, teve, even late night news, -_-". The worst part is the next morning i can't even wake up for pray! and i always do that for days.
Well the thing is, i have this kind of complication when it comes to EATING. I don't know exactly but i think i believe that we human, need to have meals 3 times a day. The problem is, when i woke up late at noon (oowh god this is so embarrassing), the first thing i feel is that i'm so hungry, so i eat my brunch. Then at late noon around 5 pm i will feel the same again, so i eat again. That's becoming my second meal. However, i didn't realize that i have this thought on my mind that i should at least have one more meal to end my day. So i eat again eventually -_-''. And theeeennn, i indeed gain more WEIGHT!! aaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!

When I'm on WGM

2011-01-22T00:33:00.000-08:00

hallloooo... it's been a long time. kangeeeeeeenn!!
aduh beneran deh kangen banget udah lama ga nulis blog, feeling a bit guilty sih, but yeah eventually we meet again my baby mmuuuaaah muuuuaaahhh :p

hhmm.. mau cerita apa ya? banyak sih yang pengen ditulis tapi bingung -_-
oke, cerita yang ini aja deh, ini udah lama banget sih. tapi yowes lah. ini tulisan gue bikin pas ada semacam sayembara asal-asalan dari koreanindo, tentang siapa pasangan yang lo pengen kalau suatu hari lo dapet kesempatan untuk bergabung di WGM(We Got Married). berhubung gue ga bisa milih salah satu dari my super oppas, and berhubung saat itu gue lagi in love sama oppa yang satu ini, sooo.. the award goes to.. CHEON JEONG MYEONG oppa!!! yeeeeaaaahhhh.....

the story goes like this..

1. who is your she/he? your future husband/wife?
   Cheon Jeong Myeong oppa!! >.<

2. what you want people to call you?
   Smile couple! ^^ soalnya kita berdua punya senyum yang unik. banyak orang bilang senyum kita berdua mirip, apalagi senyum kita paling jago buat orang2 jadi melting.. hahaha :p

3. what type of house do you want to live in?
   Hanook.. yup! rumah tradisional korea. karena JungMyung oppa suka suasana yang tenang dan romantis.. rumahnya ga harus besar, yang penting semua fasilitias lengkap dan tamannya luas, buat tanam buah dan sayur2an organik buat kita konsumsi sendiri.. hihihihii.. :p oh yaa.... kalau bisa ada teras luas di atas perapian buat kita ngobrol-ngobrol di musim dingin sambil merencanakan masa depan.. >///<

4. what movie do you want to watch in your first date?
   First date movie?? hmm... apa aja yang penting bukan film horor hahahaa.. walaupun banyak orang bilang asik nonton horor bareng pasangan biar bisa peluk sana sini, tapi gue jamin kita ga bakal bisa konsen karena ketakutan duluan.. haha maklum penakut.. paling bagus sih kalau filmnya yang romantis mengharukan gimana gitu.. biar pas aku nangis bisa dipeluk oppa >///<

5. what song that describe you the most?
   Lagu Tree by Alex yang ada di soundtrack cinderella sister pas banget buat jadi couple song kita.. kita bakal sering denger lagu itu selama perjalanan ke mana pun. ke pantai di sore hari, ke taman, ke mana pun yang penting berdua... >.<

6. what do you want to do in your 100 day anniversary?
   100 days anniversary kita, wajib dong photoshoot!! pagi2 aku bangunin oppa dengan secangkir teh ginseng dan one little kiss (>.<), habis mandi kita pilih baju buat satu sama lain, terus kita jalan ke taman buat photoshoot yang bertemakan "pasangan terbaik tahun ini" sampai siang, tapi karena oppa ada urusan, kita harus pisah sementara. kira2 jam 4 sore aku di-sms "yeobo, aku tunggu kamu jam 6 di namsan tower, be sure you are coming, saranghae nae yeongwonhan yeoja <3...".. dan akhirnyaa... ada surprise candle-light dinner dengan dekorasi serba mawar putih di seluruh penjuru ruangan..aaahhh...

7. what present you want to give in your husband/wife birthday?
   Untuk ulang tahun oppa, karena kita udah cukup mapan, kayaknya kalau hadiahnya barang kurang pas, jadi aku berencana akan mengabulkan semua permintaan dari JungMyung oppa selama-lamanya, asal jangan minta cerai aja :p dan selama pas ngasih ucapan selamat ulang tahun, kita duduk berdua di bawah sinar matahari senja di musim gugur sambil nikmatin cantiknya daun berguguran.. tiba2, cup. small kiss for me is enough to make him frozen in 5 seconds. well, he will be shy at first but after that he will respond me back with greater actions (sensored for children under 19) >///<, and we will live happily ever after..

well yeah it sure is sensored for children under 16. but who can tell?
aduuh kayak orang labil aja deh tulisannya. tapi jujur emang saat nulis ini gue lagi super labil sih. alias ha-be-el -_-. hmmm...well you can laugh at me but i'm still confident in myself. imagination is fun, you can't even tell how great it is :p

I Want CJM! >.<

Calling You Out, It Has to be You

2010-11-19T06:40:00.000-08:00

>.<..... aaaahhh... i'm actually doing it again this time.. really really doing it.. geez

Just as usual, after finished watching a drama, this heart is trembling, these tears can't be hold any longer.. everything bursts out, exploded. Especially when i see the smile of the male actor, god! i'm melting, bleeding out.

If i can explain the feeling by words, i will have done it. but.... -,-

Actually the drama had been aired long time ago, at the beginning of this year i think. well, no more chit-chat.. just listen and feel the lyrics.. got you!

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Calling You Out

나를 깨우는 외로움에, 지쳐버린 잠에서 깨면
When I wake up from the loneliness that wakes me up
여전히 웃는 그대가 생각나서, 나도 몰래 미소 짓는데
I think about their always smiling face which makes me smile without knowing
이렇게 또 사랑은 가고, 아름다운 계절이 오면
Like this another person leaves and when another beautiful season arrives
네가 남긴 슬픔에 그리움에 나는 또 이 거릴 걷는다
with the sadness and longing for you which you left behind, I walk down this street again

하루 또 하루 나 살아가다가
Day after day as I live my life
그대 이름에, 또 눈물이 나면
I get teary after hearing his name
나 참을 수 없어, 이렇게 웃을 수 없어
I can’t hold it in, I can’t laugh like this
또 그대 이름 불러본다

I try calling his name again

가슴에 남은 상처도 이젠, 그대 이름 잊으라는데
With the scar he left on my heart, I’m trying to forget his name
내 입술을 깨물고, 참아봐도
although I bite my lips trying to hold it in
내 사랑 너 하나 뿐인 걸

my love is only you

하루 또 하루 나 살아가다가, 그대 이름에또 눈물이 나면
Day after day as I live my life, I get teary after hearing his name

나 참을 수 없어, 이렇게 웃을 수 없어

I can’t hold it in, I can’t laugh like this
또 그대 이름 불러본다
I try calling his name again

아 무렇지 않게 살아가다가 사랑이 또 그리울 때면

I live my life pretending nothing has happened, When I’m longing for love

그대가 남긴 아픔에 나도 모르게 눈물 흘리는데

With the hurt he has left behind, I start to cry without knowing

하루 또 하루 나 살아가다가, 그대 이름에또 눈물이 나면
Day after day as I live my life, I get teary after hearing his name
나 참을 수 없어, 이렇게 웃을 수 없어
I can’t hold it in (can’t hold it in), I can’t laugh like this
또 그대 이름 불러본다
I try calling his name again

It Has to be You

오늘도 내기억을 따라헤매다
Today, i wander in my memory

이 길 끝에서 서성이는 나
I’m losing my way again

다신 볼 수도 없는 니가 나를 붙잡아
I’m pasing around on the end of this way, You’re still holding me tightly

나는 또 이 길을 묻는다
even though i can’t see you any more

널 보고 싶다고, 또 안고 싶다고, 저 하늘보며 기도하는 날

I’m praying to the sky i want see you and hold you more that i want to see you and hold you more

니가 아니면 안돼

It can’t be if it’s not you
너 없인 난 안돼

i can’t be without you
나 이렇게 하루 한달을 또 일년을

it’s okay if i’m like this for a day, a month and a year
나 아파도 좋아, 내 맘 다쳐도 좋아 난

it’s fine even if i'm hurts, it’s fine even if my heart’s hurts
그래 난 너 하나만 사랑하니까

yes because i’m just in love with you

나 두 번 다시는 보 낼 수 없다고

i cannot send you away one more time

나 너를 잊고 살순 없다고

i can’t live without you

니가 아니면 안돼

It can’t be if it’s not you
너 없인 난 안돼

i can’t be without you
나 이렇게 하루 한달을 또 일년을

it’s okay if i’m like this for a day, a month and a year

나 아파도 좋아, 내 맘 다쳐도 좋아 난

it’s fine even if i'm hurts, it’s fine even if my heart’s hurts

그래 난 너 하나만 사랑하니까

yes because i’m just in love with you

내 멍든 가슴이
my bruised heart
널 찾아오라고, 소 리쳐 부른다

is screaming to me to find you
넌 어딨는거니

where are you?
나의 목소리 들리지 않니

can’t you hear my voice?
나 에게는

to me…

나 다시 살아도

if i live my life again
몇 번을 태어나도

if i’m born over and over again
하루도 니가 없이 살 수 없는 나

i can’t live without you for a day
내가 지켜줄 사람

You’re the one i will keep
내가 사랑할 사람 난

you’re the one i will love
그래 난 너 하나면 충분하니까

i’m…yes because i’m happy enough if i could be with you

너 하나만 사랑하니까

because you're the only one i love

I don' actually understand what i'm doing right know, but it feels like something that i have to let out. unless i will get it worse.. aahhh.. such a long long looonggg night...

Playful Kiss Effect

2010-11-02T01:46:00.000-07:00

2010-10-28 22.37 Meilia Hospital, Jakarta

After watching playful kiss all, i start to think what will my life be in the future. Will it be beautiful? Or will it be awful? It depends on what i’m doing right now. But the thing that i’m curious the most is, who is the person whom i’m going to marry? Who is he? Where is he right now? Is he an indonesian? Or is he a foreigner? What is he doing right now? What kind of person is he? What kind of family does he have? Hmmm... it’s so frustating to think about them right now.. :p

Hmm.. Baek Seung Jo.. Oh Ha Ni.. what happens if my life goes like their story? Should i look for someone and find him and like him so much until i can’t live without him and just be strong even he doesn’t like my existence? Should i just be bold? Love is hurting as i experienced.

Right at this moment, i’m listening to the song tittled “saying i love you”, this song is from the drama playful kiss. It makes me think, is confessing such that hard? Or does it require a really silly thought to make you go right away to confess? What makes people go for confessing? What power they have to do so? I want to experience that kind of situation as well.. -,-

From all the informations, experiences, imaginations, until the stories i’ve heard, there is no such thing called pure love. What if i really want it right now? What if i’m asking for it right now? What if i’m demanding it right now? I trully want a pure lasting love. I want to know the feeling of loving and to be loved. Sometimes, i think of having a relationship just to experience that. But will it works? Aaahhhh!!!

I WANT BAEK SEUNG JO!!!! >.<

FSFTMATM Part 3 - Nella Fantasia

2010-10-30T10:42:00.001-07:00

Baru aja gue abis nonton Qualification of Men (QOM) di KBS TV, dan pas banget lagi episode performance choir mereka yang dipimpin oleh Kollen Park (si ibu-ibu yang bawain 'Heart to Heart' di arirang TV) sebagai konduktornya.. kesan? KEREEEENNN!!! gue sempet nonton beberapa kali episode mereka latihan selama kurang lebih 2 bulan. Latihannya ga gampang lho, makanya gue agak takjub juga liat "ketahanan-banting"-nya para members QOM, dari yang sama sekali ancur sampai bisa nyanyi dengan satu arah dan satu suara, TOP deh pokoknya.

kalau ga salah, mereka nyanyiin 2 lagu, lagu ballad dan lagu soundtrack film kartun anak-anak. naaah, yang bikin gue lebih takjub lagi, lagu pertamanya ini nih. judulnya nella fantasia. Kalau ga salah juga nih, lagu ini emang aslinya soundtrack film Italia. Karena gue sempet nonton mereka latihan dari nol banget, makanya gue tahu kesusahan mereka yang awalnya susah banget buat melafalkan lagu ini yang emang bahasa Italia. Dan akhirnya, malam ini gue ga bisa tidur alias begadang nyari donlotan nih lagu. emang lagu ini addictive banget sih. Kalo ga salah isinya tentang utopia alias negeri khayalan. Gapapa, ngerti atau ga ngerti yang penting lagunya mantabh. Recomended!

Btw, para cowo, om-om, bapak-bapak, dan kakek-kakek serta semua tim choir (banyak cewenya juga) dari QOM dapet penghargaan lho dari event tersebut, walaupun bukan pemenangnya) mereka nangis banjir jir jir deh setelah selesai nyelesain misi mereka. terharu euuuyyy.. >.< berasa gue yang capek ikut latihan selama ini.. hahaaa..

enjoy deh, Nella Fantasia...

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See

2010-08-25T08:12:00.000-07:00

things are very funny even though you think they're not. how come life seems so hard when you see it yourself? but when you see other's, you'll think theirs are pretty fun. yours should be one too, cause if it's not, then you should have done it long time ago, or may be you just being afraid to ended it. whatsoever.

when i see other's success, i dont think they deserve it somehow. it's just a silly and a jealous me. sometimes i think i should have changed my place to just somebody's, especially the successful one. but think more about it, it's just a waste to give up your life just because you are jealous of someone and not enjoying it. then i think again, we are so special so that we got to be born to this world.

eventually, all i have to say is, just be grateful of what you have. Thanks God for everything.

aaahh... just try to write again and this is the result, talking nowhere to go. annyeong!

FSFTMATM Part 2

2010-05-27T08:06:00.000-07:00

Sendu, abis liat puisi karya B.J Habibie buat almarhum istrinya... sediiiiihhhh.....

trus pas banget lagi denger lagunya K.Will, dropping the tears..

check this out

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(FSFTMATM) Favorite song for this moment according to mood, PART 1

2010-05-12T01:08:00.000-07:00

hmm.. what a cloudy day

today's activities are just as boring as any other day. Go to the campus, being late, have such meaningless chats with also meaningless classmates.. hahaha..

but today is just different, i feel as blue as the cloud.. cieeee

well i think that one is just an excuse for not doing my assignments, and also because these days i'm watching this drama (personal taste).. hahaha

so let's have a listen to my FSFTMATM, what a long word. well, Enjoy!

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It should NOT have been like this!!

2010-03-18T00:56:00.000-07:00

well yeah, let's start with the main subject, it is LOVE actually.

hmm... it started 3 months ago, i don't even know why..

to be honest, i think we shouldn't have met at all..

ok, and to be more honest.. he's NOT my type at all

well yeah, i think everyone knows what exactly my type is,

KOREAN, with a fresh smile, perfect features, good looking, nice body, beautiful skin and etc.

and he is totally not.

the problem is not whether he is my type or not, but why can i ended to this kind of situation when actually i shouldn't.

hmmmm.......................... confused, is the best thing that i can describe now, nothing else.

he's hooked up actually. what else can i do.

tough, hard, suffered, tortured, MULES. grgrgrggrgrgrgrgrgrggrgrgrgrgrrr.... mulai gajeb nih gw.. lanjutin aja kapan2 yak yak yak yak

Postingan pertama di 2010

2010-01-07T01:33:00.000-08:00

this year seems so blue to me

ok, hmm... i'm sorry. kenapa juga ya gw minta maaf? tak tahulah! ok ci, jujur aja lah ciiii...

sekarang lagi liburan semester 3 menuju semester 4. semuanya terlihat santai dan mengasyikkan. seolah-olah semua tugas telah selesai dan gw terlihat seperti tinggal menuai hasil yang gw perjuangkan selama kuliah. faktanya, terlalu banyak masalah yang gw hadapin. hmmm.... tapi kalo diuraikan satu persatu gw juga sebenernya gw ga tau apa itu.

selama ini yang gw rasain adalah, gw kuliah dengan niat yang tidak sepenuhnya untuk mencari ilmu, sebenernya niat gw kuliah ya kurang lebih hanya untuk memenuhi keinginan ortu tercinta, bukan berarti gw nya ga mau kuliah, cuma gw punya perasaan gw ga mampu untuk itu. tapi sekarang gw baru ngerasain kalo itu sebernya NOT SO HEALTHY buat gw, ortu, dan sekeliling gw. why? kenapa? karena:

1. niat dari awal udah salah, bukan salah juga sih, cuma kurang tepat.

2. ketika gw ngerjain tugas, perasaan yang gw rasa cuma sebatas, "ok yang penting udah gw selesai-in,hasilnya bodo amat, yang penting gw udah berusaha". tapi kenyataannya juga usaha itu juga ga maksimal. serba salah.

3. ternyata usaha membuahkan hasil itu benar adanya. usaha gw yang memang hanya "setengah-setengah" menghasilkan nilai yang juga sekedarnya. ga terlihat sama sekali ada usaha sepenuh hati di dalamnya.

4. aku melukai perasaan orang tua tercinta. aku manusia paling hina. padahal gw tau banget harapan mereka ke gw itu sangat tinggi, ya walaupun meraka ga maksa gw untuk banting tulang setengah mati untuk belajar, tapi gw tau mereka ga mau membebani gw. tapi apa balasan gw??? cuma bisa ngabisin duit mereka, uang kuliah gw itu ga sedikit, bisa unutk ngebiayain kuliah 8-10 orang anak, belum embel2 beli alat-alatnya, beli bahan-bahan, transportasi, jajan, jalan-jalan, fotokopi, les eilts, tes eilts, dll. gw takut gw udah termasuk kategori anak durhaka. ya Allah................

5. sebentar lagi semester 4, setelah itu gw harus berangkat ke ausie dengan biaya yang aduh bikin gw mules aja. dan sekali lagi gw tau kalau punya perasaan "takut tidak berhasil" itu salah, tapi perasaan itu ada.

6. sekarang nilai-nilai udah keluar. dan hasilnya yaaa... begitulah.. gw bingung sama temen-temen gw yang selama proses beajar mereka ya ga jauh beda dari gw lah, bahkan bisa dibilang gw lebih lengkap. tapi nilai mereka lebih tinggi. why??

7. emang salah kalau kuliah niatnya untuk mencari nilai??

kapan-kapan gw lanjutin lagi. zzzzzzzzzzzz

One of my saddest time

2009-11-26T02:49:00.000-08:00

i dont know whether even it is real or not. but it seems does. we are being "kicked out" from our own palace. well why and how? god damn reason.

dissapointed

2009-11-05T18:23:00.000-08:00

gw kecewa sama diri gw sendiri.

1. gw ga konsisten sama omongan gw, bukannya gw bohong, tapi gw ga priorotasin janji itu.

2. gw selalu lari dari masalah. bukannya diselesain malah ditinggalin. babo!

3. gw ga bertanggung jawab sama kewajiban yg udah diamanahin ke gw.

4. gw ga bersyukur sama apa yg gw dapet. banyak maunya.

5. gw egois. maunya dapet yg enak2 mulu.

6. gw selalu mengulu-ngulur deadline. sampah.

7. gw ga open-minded. ga bisa nerima pendapat orang lain. who do u think u r????!!!!

what do u think about me??

Anooooooo

2009-10-20T08:46:00.000-07:00

haha... sudah lama saya tidak menyentuh teman saya yang satu ini.. bukan karena saya sombong, atau lupa.. tapi memang karena saya LUPA.. hahahahahhaaa... ga sih, sebenernya SIBUK.. cieee.. sok sibuk! tapi emg bener kok! sibuk kuliah..

eh2.. judul postingannya kan 'Ano',, itu nama adeknya temen gw. haruuuuuuuuu................

setiap kali gw mau maen ke rumahnya temen gw ini, seneeeeng deh rasanya!! hahaaaa... pastinya karena ada si Ano itu!! omaigat!

abis dia keren bgt dah maen pianonya!! huhuuuuuu!!!! pokoknya cowo gw ntar harus jago main piano! wajib!!!

haruuuu.. capek ah.. daaaahhh T________T

The EDGE

2009-09-17T08:22:00.000-07:00

sumpah ya.... gw kuliah 2 minggu cuma ngomongin ginian doang tiap hari dari pagi ampe sore ampe pagi lagi TAPI GA NGERTI2 JUGA!!!!!!!

sebenernya THE EDGE apa sih??????

itu dosen ga bilang sih tujuan yg dia minta dari kita tuh apa??!! apa yang dia mau?? sekalinya gw udah hampir nemu, ama dia dibolak-balik lagi, ilang deh tuh semua ide gw. sekalinya gw udah punya banyak ide, ama dia dicecer terus ya gw ga bisa ngomong lagi. sekalinya gw udah kebingungan setengah mati, mau nanya, raut mukanya bilang "lw bego amat ci!!!". sekalinya gw memberanikan diri nanya ke asdos, kata asdosnya "kamu ga boleh nanya the edge tuh apa, kamu harus menemukan dan merasakan sendiri".. GUBRAK! huhhhh....

saya bingung!. THE EDGE berhasil membuat saya GILA!

tapi.... hidayah Allah memang tak terduga.. akhirnya di hari ke-14 gw kuliah ttg hal yang gajeb ini, gw menemukan satu titik temu yang membawa gw ke arah yang benar.. yaitu.. EXPERIENCE THE QUALITY ONCE AGAIN! ya mungkin cuma dengan cara itu gw bisa dapet 'the edge' gw..

UDAH ah.. capek ngomongin the edge.. btw, sekarang lagi liburan lebaran.. tapi TUGAS MENUMPUK memang sudah kepastian.. ahhh..........

First Impression at Gunawan T.

2009-08-31T06:37:00.000-07:00

Haha.. don't think like I met a fresh young guy with a very nice smile and amazing charm. Even though I hope it will happen soon, the reality is just still far away.. Just Listen first..

Today, the first day of the 3rd semester began with Gunawan's class, Design Theory and Method. OMG!! He is the father of the biggest and the cruelest evil in the entire world, ar*dananjayacingcongee!!! The psychopath and the craziest art freak ever!!!

Calm down oiii...

Hmm.. first impression.. He entered the class with 'good-morning hello' that doesn't sound like as it should be. I heard he said, "good monin". I wondered why He can't talk clearly, hmm.. may be because he is chinese?? or probably because we were too scared of him so we couldn't really hear what he was saying.. Hahaaa.. He did make us asking for more 'good monin'. Feel sorry though.

Then, he introduced himself in a whole story chapters, oops I lied. No I mean, he told us about his experiences in studying architecture from the beginning of his college life up until now. Actually, I admire him as an architect. He studied architecture from here, in faculty of engineering University of Indonesia, and cameback here after his Phd degree and started to design his own campus. So the places i used to go everyday and the classes i used to attend are appeared from his mind. What a great great ARCHITECT!

We thought, he would be the person who doesn't even know how to smile. in fact, he laughed a lot even though i didn't understand his sense of humor. eeuuuwh.. He was laughing over the movie of monkeys jumping and fighting each others while we were struggling to death in order to keep watching it, what a freak!

One thing that i'm really afraid about is, he will disappoint me after several meetings, just like his fuc*ing son. Being a nice guy at the first and turn into devil in a second. Hooo God, please don't give me a second torture from this family. I think the last one with the son is more than enough. I will do my best this time!! So keep my spirit up like a torch! Amiin.

Hwaiting!! Mr.G please be nice to us, so I will be able to keep my respect on you.. huhuuu... (tears of hope)

Your Mother

2009-08-29T05:26:00.000-07:00

Who should I give my love to?
My respect and my honor to
Who should I pay good mind to?
After Allah
And Rasulullah

Comes your mother
Who next? Your mother
Who next? Your mother
And then your father

Cause who used to hold you
And clean you and clothes you
Who used to feed you?
And always be with you
When you were sick
Stay up all night
Holding you tight
That's right no other
Your mother (My mother)

Who should I take good care of?
Giving all my love
Who should I think most of?
After Allah
And Rasulullah

Comes your mother
Who next? Your mother
Who next? Your mother
And then your father

Cause who used to hear you
Before you could talk
Who used to hold you?
Before you could walk
And when you fell who picked you up
Clean your cut
No one but your mother
My mother

Who should I stay rigt close to?
Listen most to
Never say no to
After Allah
And Rasulullah

Comes your mother
Who next? Your mother
Who next? Your mother
And then your father

Cause who used to hug you
And buy you new clothes
Comb your hair
And blow your nose
And when you cry
Who wiped your tears?
Knows your fears
Who really cares?
My mother

Say Alhamdulillah
Thank you Allah
Thank you Allah
For my mother.

lyric by Yusuf Islam

Kriteria Calon Suami >.<

2009-08-28T22:27:00.000-07:00

Seperti biasa.. fesbuk adalah tempat ngegajeb gw yg paling asik. gw bisa nemuin hal2 yg bikin gw ngakak klo lagi bete. tadi malem gw bete nih, untungnya gw nemu sesuatu yg bikin senyum-senyum.. hoho.. ngomongin calon suami.. asik kan..

haha.. ngomongin ttg calon suami.. asik kali ya klo kita bisa dapet suami yg sesuai keinginan kita. hehe.. karena itu, gw mau nulis daftar standar gw buat si calon suami.. hihihi.. jadi malu sendiri. so what lah, enjoy it!

1. Good looking, penting ndak??
--> ga mutlak sih, tapi standar gw yaa.. mirip Yunho TVXQ sih ok lah.. huwahaha*plak

2. Pinter?
--> WAJIB. pokoknya harus lebih pinter dari gw. klo bisa tajir sekalian. haha

3. Usia yang d inginkan
--> Maunya sih lebih tua 3-5 taun. karena klo seumur atau cuma beda 2 taun berarti waktu gw lulus kuliah dia belom tentu punya kerjaan tetap. haha

4. Tinggi yang di inginkan
--> 178 cm minimal.. yuhuuu!!

5. Sense humor
--> Harus LUCU! gw ga mau nanti cuma gw doang yg ngejayus. make my life colorful please.. hehe

6. Tindikan
--> Nanti aja klo udah nikah. gw yg tentuin harus dipasang dimana.. owowow

7. Menerima kmu apa adanya
--> Wajiblah! ga bisa terima gw ya kelaut aja!

8. Rambut pink??
--> NO PINK IS ALLOWED IN MY HOUSE! rambut hitam emang paling cocok buat org Asia, lebih bisa mengeluarkan kharisma.. haha

9. Cengeng ato ndak?
--> NO! apa2an lw klo cengeng! klo gw nangis siapa yg ngehibur gw?? masa lw ikut nangis?? no!

10. Kurus apa gemuk?
--> Standar lah.. yang penting SEHAT..

11. Item,coklat, atau putih?
--> Putih aja, coklat boleh deh. gw ga mau anak gw item! ntar ga mirip gw.. hehe

12. Rambut panjang ato pendek?
--> Tergantung mood aja deh. tapi sebelum nikah sama gw jangan berani2 botak!

13. Plastik ato logam?
--> apa c ni? gajeb ah.

14. Aroma tubuhnya enak
--> Harus doong!! mana mau gw deket2 klo bau! huex!

15. Perokok?
--> If u smoke, don't ever see me again!

16. Peminum
--> Just go to hell!

17. Tipe cowo/cewe tetangga
--> maksud? mudah2an dia bukan tetangga gw, ga ada yg ganteng di neighborhood gw.. hehe

18. Berotot
--> Yaa.. boleh lah ya.. daripada kerempeng.

19. Maen piano
--> Wajib! He should play it in our first honeymoon night.. hoo... so sweet....

20. Maen bass/gitar
--> Boleh lah, buat tambahan di data ability..

21. Maen violin
--> Should be nice

22. Nyanyi sangat bagus
--> Ya ga bagus2 amat lah. tapi klo bisa bagus sih gw acungin jempol. emg mau ngalahin TVXQ apa??

23. Vain?
--> Jangan lah.. bisa berantem sama bokap gw klo gini ceritanya.. ckckck

24. Berkacamata
--> Boleh2.. being cool is important and the thing is, it means u love to read. hopefully.

25. Dengan braces
--> ow ow ow

26. Tipe pemalu
--> No! it should be me who is shy. then who's gonna start if u won't?

27. Pemberontak apa cowo/cewe baek (tenang)
--> Sometimes being rebelious looks cool, i love cool guy. uuuuu...

28. Aktif atau pasif
--> hehe.. depends on the situation.

29. Tight or bomb?
--> You should be nice to me otherwise there won't be another chance

30. Penyanyi atau penari
--> Haha.. bisa dua2nya lebih ok. Yunho's style is required

31. Stunner
--> O yes definitely, especially for the appearance.

32. Hiphop
--> Just a bit is ok. I like hiphop as well.

33. Anting
--> No! even i don't wear those.

34. Mr/Ms count-my-ex-until you drop
--> Hmm.. i think everybody has one's own time..

35. Lesung pipi
--> Ihh.. imutnya.. gw aja ga punya.

36. Kutu buku
--> He has to love reading, but when i'm around don't u dare ignore me!

37. Mr/Ms love letter
--> Uhhh.. I hate those things

38. Suka bermain
--> Ya, playful is required as well. but btw, what kind of play?? ow ow

39. Flirt
--> Haha... it should be a secret between us.

40. Penulis puisi
--> Uuuuhh... definitely no. it sounds fake for me.

41. Serius
--> Ya jangan serius2 amat deh. serem..

42. Gebetan di kampus
--> Haha.. hopefully he is not one of my colleage in my campus

43. Pelukis
--> Haha.. try to paint me ya..

44. Religius
--> WAJIB! biar bisa membawa gw ke jalan yg benar... Amiin

45. Orang yang suka menggoda org lain
--> Heee???? genit bgt d! no no absolutely no!

46. Computer games geek or internet freak
--> Yaahhh... jangan doong.. ntar gw dicuekin.. hiks2

47. Berbicara 20bahasa,,
--> Lebay ah! asal bisa inggris, korea, jepang, mandarin, arab, n 1 lagi bahasa lain sih cukup... hihi

48. Loyal or faithfull
--> Both should be nice

49. Pencium handal
--> Hehehe... It's not a must but yaa.. it's lovely.

50. Cinta anak-anak
--> WAJIB dooong.. ^^

haha.. gajeb bgt ya gw, tapi whoever u are who read this, just try to make ur own cos it's fun. May Allah hears my pray.. Amiin. ^^

Mudah2an ga ada yg baca blog gw

2009-08-24T09:24:00.000-07:00

Kadang2 malu juga ya diary dibaca2 orang lain..

tapi dodolnya gw, ngapain amat nulis diary di blog klo ga mau dibaca orang.. yaaahhh... tuntutan hidup kali? jyahahaa.. ga lah.. cuma apresiasi diri aja.

HADUH! GA PENTING BANGET SIH LW CI!!!

bagi yang mau baca blog saya, siap2 dengan ke-gajeb-an yang akan muncul di setiap postingannya yaa.... hidup INDONESIA! MERDEKA!!

-,-?

Indonesian Food is the BEST!

2009-08-24T05:30:00.000-07:00

gw punya temen yg tinggalnya jauh di turki. kan bedanya 4 jam tuh, jadi klo gw udah buka puasa, dia masih harus nunggu 6 jam lagi buat buka.. haha.. kasian ya. kadang2 klo chatting ketara banget lemesnya..

jadi ceritanya hari ini mbak gw heboh nih masak makanan buat buka puasa, nasi uduk kuning dan embel2nya.. enak loh..

nah trus dia minta difotoin tuh makanan yang tadi buat buka puasa. aku terharu, segitu kangennya dia sama masakan indonesia, sedih liatnya.. :((

yaudah lah gw turun ke dapur buat foto2, eh pas lagi nyari2 makanan sisa (ya ampun kesannya gw nyerok2 di tong sampah) mbak gw liat tuh. dikirain mbaknya gw mau foto diri gw di dapur, jyahaha... ngapain amat gw narsis di dapur?

lanjut2, pas gw bilang ini foto buat temen gw yang di luar negri, langsung deh sama mbak gw tuh nasi dipilihin yang paling ok, embel2nya ga lupa juga, lengkap dengan sambelnya. katanya "aduh kak, tau gitu mbak masak yang lebih bagus lagi, kasian banget ya temen kakak di luar negri ga bisa makan sambel, makanya kak mumpung masih di indonesia makan sambel yang banyak, ntar klo udah di ostrali ga bakal nemu yang kayak gini..". hahaaa.. dalam hati gw ketawa aje, emang gw apaan disuruh makan sambel mulu..

buat si ali temen gw yang dari tadi diomongin, sabar ya.. insya Allah setaun lagi gw bakal ngerasaian hal yg sama kyk lw. Amiin. I LOVE INDONESIAN FOOD!!! mmuuuaaahhh...

Thanks to Mamat

2009-08-24T02:33:00.000-07:00

baru sekali nih ngotak-ngatik blog. asik juga ternyata... hoho

tapi kok jadinya sok imut gini ya... haha...

tapi thanks banget ya buat Mamat yang udah bantuin en nerangin ke gw cara2nya sampai detail bgt, maklum beginner... THANKS YA MAT!! ^^

Kuliah oh kuliah...

2009-08-23T23:26:00.000-07:00

udah ah cerita ttg cintrong2an.. capeekk.. skrg jatahnya kuliah. oow.. *o*

jadi gini, saya sekarang sudah duduk di bangku kuliah semester 3 di kampus yg 70% nya hutan. haha.. program yg saya ambil tentu saja diluar perkiraan dan cita2 saya. arsitektur. haaa... -,-?

selama setaun kemarin saya kuliah, ga ada tuh yang namanya 'enjoy', 'happy', 'spirit', etc. itu semua musnah dari imajinasi saya tentang perkuliahan yang menyenangkan, bebas, santai, apalagi pacaran.. GA SEMPEEETT....

lanjut ke inti masalah, dari semester satu ke semester dua, nilai gw pas2an aja lah, ga ada yg ok banget. cuma yang pastinya di tiap semester ada yang namanya mata kuliah SETAN, alias mata kuliah yang paling mendominasi menurut jumlah SKS, dan yang pastinya SUSYEEE dan hampir ada tiap hari. fuuuhhh. dan mata kuliah syeetan inilah yang kadang2 membuat jiwa gw terbang entah kemana.

smstr 1: visual art, 3 hari seminggu, dosennya TAI ABIS (klo buat yg ini, ini paling mentok gw tolerir, abis kesabaran gw), 4 dari 17 SKS, C.

smstr 2: communication technique in architecture, 3 hari seminngu, dosennya killer, parah bgt UAS gw cuma tidur 6 jam seminggu, 6 dari 20 SKS, B. andaikan B+ aja, selamat deh gw. huwee

smstr 3: architectural design I, 4 hari dalam seminggu, dosennya katanya sih SUPER KILLER, kata senior mereka ampe nginep2 gitu, 10 dari 19 SKS, hahahahahahahahaaaa... kurang menderita gimana lagi gw..

bagi yang baca, dimohon DO'A nya ya... hiks2. nanti insya Allah kalau saya sudah berhasil menjadi arsitek yang sukses, anda2 sekalian boleh kok konsultasi gratis tis tis... hehe... ^^

Ternyata gw MENGERIKAN

2009-08-23T08:33:00.000-07:00

abis iseng2 ikut quiz di fesbuk.. gw shocked sendiri!

judul kuis-nya ttg tipe pecinta seperti apa c lw sebenernya.. yah pokoknya gitu2 lah.

eeeehhhh... hasilnya mengerikan ternyata. gw tipe2 yg klo suka ma org tuh malah bisa benciiii bgt tanpa sebab. serem yaaa... tapi sejauh ini sih bener.. WADUH??

tapi pas banget deh, barusan aja gw abis denger lagunya 'Davichi', judulnya "I Love You Even Though I have You".. NGENA BANGEEETT....

ga enak ternyata

2009-08-23T05:14:00.000-07:00

gw yakin lw semua pasti punya first love.. wuuuhh.. sounds interesting.

well yeah gw akuin gw juga punya tuh yg namanya first love. enaknya sih cerita begituan cuma buat dikenang, tapi kenyataannya cerita itu terulang kembali di kehidupan gw. omaigot!

mudah2an org yg bersangkutan tidak akan pernah baca tulisan ini, amit2!

fuuhh... ini cerita taon jebot bgt. gw masih SD, dia kelas berapa yah?? lupa gw juga. pokoknya beda jauh lah. hmm,, bisa dibilang itu cinta monyet, tapi kan sama aja bisa dibilang cinta pertama, emang baru pertama sih seumur hidup. yaudahlah yaa.. lanjuuutt.

hmm.. ceritanya berawal dari seringnya gw ketemu dia tiap pagi, sore, ampe malem pun ketemu juga. waktu gw kecil, gw tertarik liat org yg rajin, pinter (bgt), ga sombong, baik, lucu, dll. tapi skrg gw sukanya liat yang ganteng.. hahaa. kebalik ya, harusnya waktu kecil liat org dari luarnya, pas gede liat org dari dalemnya. dasar dodol.

iyaa, kan kita suka ngobrol tuh, pokoknya gw berasa punya abang deh, secara gw ga punya kakak. trus gw ngerasa ada yg aneh tuh. tapi blm ngerti itu sebenernya apa. tapi ga lama kemudian gw lupa gimana kejadiannya gw pindah sekolah. huwee.. terpisahlah kita..

bertaun2 kemudian, nongol lah si org itu ke hadapan gw, dalam hati gw teriak "SHIT! kok lw nongol tiba2?? UNTUNG GW GA JANTUNGAN!!". dan mulai dari situ dejavu yag ga enak itu menganggu hari2 ku.. cieee.. hueekks!

yah intinya ga enak lah rasanya, susah tidur, susah belajar, untungnya gw ga susah makan.. hahaa.. eh tapi serius gw ga bisa konsentrasi ngapa2in.

sumpah baru sekali2nya gw suka sama org ampe segininya. parah! pokoknya gw BENCI STENGAH HIDUP MA TUH ORG!. serem juga nih gw, klo dah suka ma sesuatu, bisa2 gw malah benci bgt.. ihhh... takuuut..

HUEX! jijik sendiri gw ngomongin yg beginian. mudah2an ga da yg baca... tapi harus gw tulis lah daripada disimpen sendiri, bisa2 meledak nih gw. huuuuhh... capeekkk.

I have a dirty heart

2009-08-20T09:08:00.000-07:00

biasanya orang punya dirty mind, tapi gw punyanya dirty heart.. loh kok???

kita tanya galileo..

begini, semua berawal dari CLBK. keterangan selanjutnya kapan-kapan.. sekarang saya mules... huex! ^^

Besok Puasa

2009-08-19T19:34:00.000-07:00

gw inget.. jaman SMA kelas 1. gw ngomong gini ke temen-temen gw yg udah 'ahli' pacaran.. "eh, kan kata nyokap gw kalo pacaran bikin bego.." serentak mereka se-genk yang lagi pada asik ngobrol langsung berhenti dari aktivitasnya dan ketawa terpingkal-pingkal denger omongan gw barusan.... eeenngg.... gw pikir, emang ada yang salah ya?? bener kok.. my mom told me that.. ya udah lah ya.. yang penting gw ngomong sesuai yang dikasih tau nyokap.

gedek sendiri sih, kesannya gw paling kampung diantara mereka.. belom pernah pacara lah, ngambil kesimpulan sendiri lah, dll. emang sih mereka pada saat itu adalah orang-orang yang nilainya lumayan, jadi yaa.. salah tempat aja gw bilang kayak gitu... tapi kan.. keselnya masih ampe sekarang nih...huhuuu...

yaaahhh.. begitulah begitulaahh.. lanjut nih.. Kan besok udah mau puasa, gw cuma mau mengingatkan ke diri gw sendiri dan teman-teman yang (kalo ada) baca ini, jauhkanlah diri dari dosa dosa.. apalagi yang paling asik tapi tak terlihat.. pacaran.. wuuiihh...

menurut gw aneh niih.. kalo orang pacaran pas lagi bulan ramandhan..

mereka saling mengingatkan buat sahur, taraweh, baca qur'an, dll.. tapi mereka sendiri mengumbar nafsunya(walaupun ga diungkapkan).. waaahhh

mudah-mudahan gw terlindung dari hal-hal seperti itu.. Amiin.. wedeeehhh... *muna mode on*

Ngegajeb

2009-08-19T08:40:00.000-07:00

tes.. tes.. namanya juga ngegajeb..

seperti banyak orang bilang.. "kalo jalan ma ciah pastinya ga jelas.." begitulah. saya sudah terbiasa menggajeb, dianggap gajep, mengajak ber-gajeb-gajeb, dan membuat ke-gajeb-an..

kalo saya bahas satu persatu hal-hal gajeb tersebut.. bisa penuh dunia per-blog-an ini... ha ha ha

duuuhh... sebenernya mau nulis banyak nih.. tapi maleseee... mending ngegajeb di fesbuk.. ha ha ha...